Narcissism & Faith -Two of your greatest Strenght
“Tough times never last- Tough people do” Robert M Schuler
THE TRIGGER
Life got tough on me, for the past month. My parents tested positive for Covid 19. My 7 yr old dog was fighting for his life. My sister underwent surgery. And I was experiencing another kind of emotional duress before all this. 22nd July, my Mom called me crying, “I cannot do this alone, like God is testing me, beaten”- her voice cracked. I said “Hmm” and cut the call. My hands shivered. Whatever shit I was dealing with on a personal level, seemed menial. I immediately knew what I needed to do, hence there was not even a second spared to waste. I booked the ticket for my hometown and took off the very next day. The first priority was getting my parents diagnosed. The second was to save my Dog, Bingo. The third was to remain unemotional and task-oriented during these seven crucial days. Then my Lovely Husband, who had his Thirtieth birthday coming up in three days. He too was already grieving the loss of his Grandfather, who passed away a month back. I felt as if the Universe was testing me too. Only this time, I had studied well to know, that conscious action at right time, in the right place can do Miracles. And A Miracle did come true.
FAITH
A voice inside me assured me that Everything will turn out fine, and I will come out of this storm, un-drenched. Why? Because since January 2022, I have been working on myself, fervidly. By now, I knew exactly what my weaknesses were and where my strength lies. I compartmentalized things without getting attached to the task. I am a Devotee of Lord Shiva, Lord Krishna and The Devi. Every evening around 7 PM, I bow down my head to the supreme trinity, seeking guidance and strength. My faith has been a consistent source of Happiness and resilience in my Life.
I always sense this unwavering connection to the Source of the Universe. You can call it Positive energy, You can call it Love, or God, or Bhagwan. The source remains the same, You need to be receptive enough to get blessed by its grace.
And I have been working on my receptivity for quite some time now.
Self Awareness is a critical Life Skill
This was a lesson learnt too late, even so, I am happy that I did.
It is hilarious! We get education for 15 years of our lives yet, manage to remain unaware of the functioning of our own inner minds.
our inner triggers, our traumas, our reactiveness.
You cannot drive a car you know nothing about. You need to know where the breaks are. Where the accelerator is. When to push that break, when to speed up and when to send the machine to servicing for better durability. Our Soul is the driver. Our Minds & Bodies are our Cars. The Road is our Life. Servicing is recharging your mind and body with activities that make you happy. And WHY to Buy a car, if you don’t take it forward on the road of life? WHY dread Past events, people, and disappointments, if they are acting as a speed breaker for your life?
How does Narcissism come into play?
People learn to get up only when they fall.
You already know this. Implementation and Sustaining that implementation poses a challenge for us. A plan only works if it fits the current circumstances and executor. No one will be able to do this for you, You need to take this responsibility, and you need to take it FAST. You are not immortal. You have limited time on this planet. You’ve gotta make it count and worthwhile.
With extensive self-awareness comes extensive clarity to manage our own lives. I am a strong advocate of Radical Self Acceptance & Self Optimization. This is the source of my infinite confidence. I know, that whatever happens- I am taken care of always.
The source beats in me, and I own the capability to tap into the power of the Source. Discipline is my friend, consistent kaizen is my Weapon. Divine is in Clarity and Demon is in Confusion. Every day, I wake up, I have a choice to live my life in divinity i.e. Clarity or muddle around in confusion, running like a headless chicken.
At this point in my life, I am as clear as river water. I know where I need to go, I know, How to go there, now all I need to do is, maintain my focus and momentum. This aptitude to live my life the way I want often comes across as Narcissistic, and Miss Know it All! So be it. I accepted this part of my psyche, and I don’t plan to change it right now, because it is working for me, at this stage in my life.
I hope, this short excerpt of my struggles & my methods, provided you with clarity to fight your own battle, and win it, My Dear Reader, Thank you for giving me your utmost valuable Attention I will write to you again ❤ ❤ ❤
“Only a fool learns from his own mistakes. The wise man learns from the mistakes of others.”
― Otto von Bismarck
